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Training for the Trial I Wasn't Yet In
Training for the Trial I Wasn’t Yet In
By the end of the conference, I felt rejuvenated and refreshed. All the messages were so powerful and challenging, like God had opened my heart for a heart and soul operation. My best friend and I returned home, and I thought this would strengthen our friendship in the months to come.
The Year I Never Saw Coming
The Year I Never Saw Coming
Why is it whenever we get so comfortable with our good lives, there's always something that shakes things up?
Why I Hated Marriage
Why I Hated Marriage
Some of the happiest periods of my life took place during college and grad school. I lived with a group of eight guys, and they were the greatest friends one could ask for. As their dating relationships grew more serious, I felt myself going down on their list of priorities. Some of those friends got married. And our friendships effectively ended.
I Am an Unlovable Vampire
I Am an Unlovable Vampire
The shame over my SSA made me feel that I was something evil, repulsive, and unlovable. My loneliness and lack of friends seemed to prove it.
The Thing I Learned from My Friend's Addiction
The Thing I Learned from My Friend’s Addiction
As addicts often do, Jake used my older friend Jeremy's sexuality to manipulate him.
How to Handle Male Rejection
How to Handle Male Rejection
I've talked to a lot of people about this rejection and they've all said they don't quite understand the rejection and couldn't see anything I'd done wrong.
My New Friend Didn't Tell Me He's Moving Away
My New Friend Didn’t Tell Me He’s Moving Away
Henry and I had connected really well — or, so I thought. He hadn't told me he was moving before it became public knowledge.
When I Discovered the Korean Spa
When I Discovered the Korean Spa
The other guys told me about the Korean spa and how those experiences helped them. This sounded like something right down my alley.
I Wanted a Brother at the Nudist Resort
I Wanted a Brother at the Nudist Resort
We decided to go to a nudist resort. My first trip to a nudist resort! Maybe I'd form a good, close friendship with the guy I was about to meet?
Losing the Greatest Community of My Life
It was an SSA guy’s dream, being close friends with ten straight guys. We had our ups and downs, but our community shared a deep intimacy.
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