It is difficult to be present with people you know will grow uninterested in you. It is difficult to develop friendships knowing your value is temporary.
As I reflect on this new friendship, I begin to overanalyze. Have I replaced one best friend with another?
It's not just that I never had a childhood best friend; it's that I'll never have a childhood best friend. That era has come and gone, that chapter closed.
Even with a better understanding of my SSA, he just couldn't take daily contact with me anymore. So, he told me he was moving out.
One day my friend came home and found me in deep emotional turmoil. He directly asked me what was wrong, so I tried to explain what I was feeling about him.
I was best friends with a straight guy. We could live together and share hugs and other brotherly affection without worrying about falling into sexual sin.
He knew he would not have met her if it hadn't been for me, and he still considered me his best friend. I gladly said yes to being his best man.
My former girlfriend dumped me and was now with my best male friend. Had I been betrayed by both of them?
But is it wrong that I look for that true brother still, that I still pray for God to bring that true brother to me? I hope not.
I told my best friend that I had literally just come from gay sex in another man's bed. I'd found him on the Internet, then regretted it. I needed support.